Uggggggggh!

It's just too hot! This was the one thing I did not miss when I lived in Seattle. Hot and humid weather. It's so hot, I feel like I'm in a southern gothic novel. I don't like AC, and when I'm by myself I try to endure the heat until I can take no more. I'm almost at that point but the problem is their was a power surge that shut out my electricity for a half hour.

I have been drinking so much water it is not even cold when I take it out of the freezer. I am not looking forward to work today. I'm avoiding the sun and physical activity until then.

Oh, to work in a nice cool office as a graphic designer, that's what I want.

If wishes were trees I'd be surrounded by forests.

Why oh Why!??????

Timing and me are not friends. Now I am getting rejected for apartments. I don't make enough money to rent a cheap apartment. That's the absurdity of my life now. I love how people who hire you think that making $10/hr is too much to pay you but that $1000 a month for an apartment is fair, not much at all. Well, I made more than $10 an hour and I was looking to pay $800 a month rent and I did not qualify for two places. Now, I may get this job that pays more, enough to pay for the places, but proof of my wages would come too late to get it, so at the end of this month I'll be homeless.

Now, the situation would not be so dire if I was to be able to go month to month after my current lease is up, but that's not how people do business. I am too old to have platonic roommates and even so, I have no friends out here to have as roommates, so I don't know what to do. Maybe I can find something cheaper. I don't know, but I'm starting to wish a heart attack would take me now, but I'm being over dramatic.

Again I shout out to the skies "WHAT HAVE I DONE TO DESERVE THIS!?????????!!!!!!!!"

Anyway I was hoping to write something more pleasant about my nice day yesterday checking out the improvements at Asbury Park, but now.......



FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It's Odd Being Alone Sometimes...

I haven't worked weekends since I left the restaurant industry which makes me feel like a normal person sometimes, except I'm not normal. When I moved back to New Jersey this is what I hoped for, except I was hoping to work in the city with a good graphic design job, married with the woman I moved back to New Jersey for. Of course the Graphic Design field has gone down the tank the last two years.

So, I've struggled to get by seeking out the good jobs while working crap jobs and losing my self esteem in the process. It's hard to get psyched to do new work when everyone who is in a position to hire you thinks your work is crap. The irony is that I always seem to get jobs I'm ill suited for!

When you are struggling to make something of your life being alone I guess is better, I only get to destroy one life instead of dragging someone who doesn't have to will to endure the crap I dish out. I don't need much in life but I forget that when I get a job it sucks and I need to spend all my time on the computer looking for a job and not watching racist Kramer videos. I feel, these days I have to set my goals for other people, and if I don't succeed in their eyes, I get lectured or worse they walk out the door, never to be heard of again in anything close to friendly terms.

So, where do I seek happiness these days? In the simple pleasures. A bike ride to a historic village. A walk on the various boardwalks. Phone calls to good friends helps but they aren't here in the area to enjoy some of the pleasures around here. Everyone has gone their separate ways, living in different states, but at least we have cell phone technology and I'm thankful for that, if only my charge would last longer! I wish it was easier to see them more, I wish I could hang out with them in some of the places around here I like.



Yesterday, is a good example. There are two places I like to go to that are only open for the warm seasons. One is called Circus drive in on route 35. It's one of those themed drive-in fast food places that have all but disappeared on the American landscape.

Trust me, when I went cross country I was seeking them out, I wasn't successful. Anyway, the atmosphere is hard to beat. It brings back childhood summer. The burgers are good, and the fries are crinkled. Too bad that Pepsi is the cola of choice. It was hot, but they somehow keep a cool breeze flowing. It would be more enjoyable having a companion, but it was still fun to look around and see the happy families enjoying their time near the shore. And to flirt with the cute servers. with my buddies, it would be fun to compete on who is the king of the charmers or at least the least creepy.



The second place I went to is called Hoffmans. It's probably the best ice cream shop I've ever been to, it's close walking distance from my soon to be vacated apartment. They have great ice cream and when the summer hits, it's a hit. I stood outside a long, but fast moving line, Lots of families with young children enjoying a simple pleasure. I think I was the only one there getting ice cream for himself. The young girl behind the counter was pleasant and I made a joke, she laughed, it made my day. I

Anyway, I'm trying to get the most of my immediate surroundings while I'm still here in Spring Lake Heights. The two places I went to yesterday will close for the winter soon after I leave anyway. I hate the fact I have to put this place behind me but...

...there you are

Some Youtube Stuff (Supertramp Edition)

I was watching a little of the Princess Di concert, which had the usual suspects but I was pleasantly surprised to see Roger Hodgson performing, He is best known as being the lead singer of Supertramp. They are one of those bands that annoyed me in the day because they were on constantly like Paris Hilton. Anyway i grew to appreciate them and found vintage videos from the bunch.



The first one is "Breakfast In America" It's my favorite song from them. I never knew what the title of the song was, it's the "Take a Look At My Girlfriend" song. I sang it last night at karaoke, it was cathartic, because of the dadadadum part that sounds like a Jewish folk song.




The next one is "The Logical Song" I like it because of the "Watch What You Say, They be calling you a radical, ...a liberal." line.




This one is "Dreamer" I like the footage because it has live vocals and makes the song sound cool.


The next one is A Dixie Chicks song. "Not Ready To Make Nice" I liked them even before they bashed Bush. The Woman who sang after me last night snag it, sang it good and it kinda put an exclamation point on how things are doing in my life.

I Can't Wait To Get A New Phone

So, I'm talking to AlPal on my cell phone and it cuts in and out. It's near its last legs, it's one of them free phones I got when I moved back to Jersey. It's basic, no frills. I got it to appease some people, but the funny thing is, when you have a land line you can say you're not home ewhen people can't get through, with a cell phone they expect you to always be available. My dad in particular. I like the fact I can ignore the solicitors that call (Are You listening Cablevision?) but there were times I had the phone on "manner mode" and I can't hear it when I'm in another room sleeping at 3 in the morning.

My phone says it's fully charged after a ten minute charge, but really it needs hours and as long as I'm not talking to someone on the it lasts for hours on that charge. I like to talk to my friends who live in New York, Wisconsin and San Francisco when I am trying to get a tan walking the boardwalks around here. I don't know the service area it gets but I do know it doesn't work when I call people in other countries or even Hawaii. Hawaii surprised me because it is one of the 50 states but the service unavailable sign indicated otherwise.

So, I'm looking forward to a new phone but I wonder what bells and whistles I get. One thing though, I will not purchase any ringtone, that just seems absurd. "Hey check it out girls I like Pearl Jam!"

I Know It Annoys Some People...

...but every once in a while I miss Seattle. Case in point... 7-Eleven. 7-Eleven is doing a cross promotion with the Simpsons movie. They have squishies, pink doughnuts, Krusty-Os and Buzz Cola.

Why I miss Seattle? They sell beer in the 7-Elevens. I was hoping to see Duff beer. They don't sell beer in Jersey 7-Elevens. If any of my three readers that live in a state that sells beer in 7-Elevens, let me know if they have Duff beer.