My Life Right Now

Oh, I try to be optimistic. I try to be hopeful. But things aren't really looking good. I still haven't found a job yet. I am probably going to start at UPS soon, but I haven't heard word from them when I start. I have had some job interviews, that's good, but I thought I might get this job at a place in Secaucus. At first I didn't think the job would be good, but the interview went well. However, they said they let me know by Monday and I haven't heard from them. In cases like this, no news is never good news. I've also had two job interviews in graphic design related jobs that i might as well not shown up for. My work didn't suit their purposes. It annoys me the fact they did not check my online portfolio. I submit on average twenty applications online a week, most are jobs I know I can do and half are jobs I'm suited for, so it annoys me when the ones who take the trouble to interview me are ones I'm not suited for.

I don't want to work in restaurants anymore. I'm convinced my loathing of my last job might have ruined my relationship with Scangirl. It certainly ruined my reputation as an easy going guy. HA! Anyway, I am hoping at least to work at UPS, it will allow for me to keep a consistent work run.

On Friday, I had let my landlord know that I'm moving out of the apartment I'm living in. I like this apartment and I had wanted to stay here with Scangirl until I was able to get a good job in the graphic arts field or at least get a good job not related to restaurants. Then we would move on, as a married couple. I can't afford to live here on my own and I was required to sign a new annual lease, no month to month option. It required a 45 day notice on my decision and the deadline was Friday. On Saturday I ran into the caretaker, and he was sad and surprised I was moving out. I wish I could stay but the only option to stay would have been if I had gotten this great job nearby where I had an interview a year ago, whose art director was a former boss of a good friend of mine. I guess my name dropping skills are lacking. I have a little over a month to figure out where I'm moving next. It would be nice to have a good job right now to let me know the locale of the place I'll next move to.

I still can't get over the loss of Scangirl. I am so angry with her. I am assuming the worst in regards to her being with another man. She has stated several times she's not, but her definite protests suggest otherwise. Besides, I want to know definitely that she is not worthy of me and not what she wants me to believe, which is that she is having a hard time getting over the death of the relationship. Anyway, I can't stop reliving the recent pre-breakup past in some desperate hope in that the relationship can be renewed. It makes me feel pathetic and weak. I get thoughts of revenge sometimes, but the best revenge is success, right now I can't achieve revenge. I realize that I am one of life's losers. I knew by my mid twenties I wasn't going to be one of life's winners but I thought that my thirties would have me in a position to not be life's loser but I'm forty and time is running out in avoiding the fall into the pit of life's losers.

Anyway I'm venting. Living in squalor, trying hard to find something real to look forward to, I have hope but my hope for things in the past has led me here, and let me tell you, if I had known I would be in this situation two years ago, I would not have left Seattle. If I knew I would be in this situation twenty years ago..... I don't really want to think about that.

I wish the Mets would start winning consistently already. I need something to distract me. I can't watch the team much these days, because it looks like they don't want to win.

Irony

Am I the only one who finds it ironic that Lindsy Lohan has canceled her 21st birthday party to go through rehab?

A Short Note

I don't remember any recent holidays that have been a lot of fun. Most of the time I have to work on the holidays because I had worked in restaurants. Anyway, Father's Day for the first time in memory turned out to be a fun day. If course I'm not a father. I hung out with my dad of course but even better I got to celebrate with my brother his first father's day and that's what made the day special. I enjoyed playing around with my nephew and I had the privilege of cooking the meal and let me tell you cooking is much more of a pleasure when you don't do it for a living at a shady restaurant. I did well.

Don't Forget John

Not too many video footage of John Lennon. Some have been removed. Plus he didn't perform for 5 years in the 70's and was shot before he had any chance to promote Double Fantasy. However I found some good ones. I don't do videos that could have been made after his death, just the live ones.



tampThe first footage is one of the few clips of "Instant Karma". It has Yoko being blindfolded by aon while knitting. I think it's great because the drummer is Alan White of Yes fame.



I'm not a big fan of the song "Imagine" but I like this version, which I believe features the last filmed live performance of John Lennon. He looks like Geddy Lee of Rush, here and has the most bizarre outfit he probably wore. It's fascinating footage, because of the formality of the audience and the fact that htey are smoking.



The next footage is from Rock and Roll Circus. It's John fronting the one time only supergroup Dirty Mac featuring Mitch Mitchell of Jimi Hendrix fame, Eric Clapton and Keith Richards on bass. They're doing the song "Yer Blues" from the White Album. Good Stuff.

I like finding footage of musicians doing non-musician stuff like presenting awards. The first one is John Lennon in 1974 getting together with Paul......Simon. It's a great time capsule with Andy Williams and jokes about his ex wife Claudine Georgette Longet, who would be more infamous a year later for shooting her lover. The other footage is from a Monday Night Football broadcast where John Lennon shows up to be interviewed by Howard Cosell. It would be almost 6 years to the day of the broadcast when Howard Cosell would announce to the country that John Lennon was shot dead.

Let's Hear It for George

Okay, in looking up video footage of Ringo Starr, I came across some fun George Harrison clips.

The first clip is from a British show where he performed "My Sweet Lord" or does he?




The second clip is a promo piece involving Eric Idle and Neil Innis, who were the stars of the Rutland show that the first clip was from. They also collaborated on The Rutles.





George Harrison was the first Beatle to be on Saturday Night Live. He appeared with Paul Simon where they performed "Here Comes The Sun" and other songs.



And the following two clips are of Paul McCartney reacting first, John Lennon's death and then George Harrison's death 21 years later. It's interesting to contrast the reactions. With John Lennon's death it was a shock and you can tell Paul was trying to be polite but comes across as flippant with the "It's a Drag" quote. In context, it doesn't come across as crass.

However, when George Harrison died, Paul knew it was coming, remembers what happened before and reacts accordingly. So, what will be said by Paul when it's Ringo's time to go? Assuming he dies first, which if you believe one fan's interpretation is that each Beatle dies in the order of coolest to least cool. So Ringo is next.

Enjoy

Let's Give Ringo Some Respect!!!

I was talking to my good friend about solo Beatles songs. I noticed that there was a time when it was Ringo that had the hits. As a SOLO Beatle, he had the most hits post Beatles, pre John Lennon being dead. Actually Paul had more hits but he was in Wings for most of them. So here are some of his hits from the 70's




Here's a very well done video promo done in the 70's. Note the 16 girl. Carrie Fisher!



Back Off Boogaloo, standard video of the 70's. Cool Song, weird hair.




Here's a 90's version of Ringo's biggest hit Photograph

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This is a poor copy of another hit of Ringo's It Don't Come Easy.



This is a blooper reel of Ringo with Marc Bolan of T-Rex. Ringo was the director of Marc Bolan's movie, who was at the top of his game. That's respect!





My favorite Ringo video is this clip with the Smother Brothers. The No No song was a cute hit for Ringo about giving up drugs but dig the marihuana leaves on the set and what's the deal with the cardboard cutout politicians? And dude! Check out Super Dave Osbourne before he was Super.

It's Good To Laugh

Sometimes I consider myself a cynic. A snarky one at that. I can't buy into the positive reinforcement bullshit some people give me. They don't understand angst and reality of the majority of people. One of the worst things I see are motivation posters. I was rifling through the Internet looking for poster ideas when I came across this page . I had not laughed out loud in such a long time. I guess I laugh at truth. I just worry that I don't take glee in the misfortunes of others, although with Paris Hilton....okay you can stop now Scanman.

We always hear about the people who got rich from nothing, but never hear about those who went the other way. Which brings up this question. How come the richest people in America aren't direct descendants of our forefathers? What happened to their wealth?

How come the word okay requires a spellcheck?

Why are McMansions beige?

What's wrong with the Mets?